David and I watched this video, Christian. You did a good job voicing this for people to hear your hard story. I do believe your posts can be an encouragement to others going through similar struggles. Thankyou for sharing. We will continue to pray for you.
This is the very hardest one to write. I have written so much on this blog over the past year and a half, just trying to share information with everyone, but now this “cancer story” is coming to a close. Her story will never come to a close for me. This is not how our story ends. I know her family feels the same way. There was no one like her on this planet, and there never will be. She was a one of a kind, and the love of my life. She was the best person I ever met, and I look forward to seeing her again one day, up in heaven. Now I will sit in this empty house that she decorated so well, but I am not alone. God is with me, she is still with me in my heart, and I still have our little terrorist of a dog running around here somewhere, so maybe it won’t be too bad. I knew this was coming for a while, and I have said a few times that I felt like I was prepared, but nothing can prepare you for it, when you realize they are gone and won’t be coming back. 12 years ...
Well, here we are. Sunday, September 18th. It's the day after my birthday. I turned 34 years old yesterday, but that is nothing important compared to today. 12 years ago today, September 18th, 2010, I stood in front of Christian Whitaker on a Carnival cruise ship in Charleston, SC. We said our vows, and she became Christian Eisenhauer. I remember crying when she came around the corner with her Dad and began walking down the aisle. I was overwhelmed with how beautiful she was. I was overwhelmed with knowing she was coming to say "I do" to me. I knew I was lucky then, and that became more self evident every single day we had together. I was crying on that day, and today I am crying for a different reason. Happy tears mostly, but I am not going to lie... I sure do miss her. We had such a great life together, and we just “got” each other in every way. I can’t put it into words. It was perfect. 12 years is not enough, but God knows what h...
I know this is Christian's cancer story blog.. but I am making one last post here, and it is about me. This is for two reasons. One, so everyone who cares about me can know how I am doing. Two, It is also for all of the strangers that have kept up with her story. They can see this peace and positivity, and hopefully see what trusting in God can do for a person in a dark time. The day that Christian died (Tuesday Aug 9 th ) here on earth, and went to heaven, I thought I was prepared. I thought I was ready. I had seen this day coming for months, and knew we were getting closer every time something changed. I would contemplate what I would be doing after this was all over with. Of course, it revolved around me doing whatever I wanted to do, selfish thoughts. I had just spent the last year and a half consumed with the word cancer. Absolutely no regrets on that being my life, I wouldn’t change a thing, as you will read on to find out. I was just tired, and was ready to do wh...
David and I watched this video, Christian. You did a good job voicing this for people to hear your hard story. I do believe your posts can be an encouragement to others going through similar struggles. Thankyou for sharing. We will continue to
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Thank you Dodie. I appreciate you both so much.
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